Body Image: Taking the Bull by the Horns

Lesson 101 in the blogging manual says ‘write about what’s live for you’.  So I’m going to do just that (written in Nov 2014).

I have been thinking about how better to look after my body and perhaps in the process to shed some pounds to improve my body image and shape. Don’t get me wrong, for the first time in my life I love the body I have. It took years of self-loathing, a crisis and much therapy to get past it, but past it I am. I am grateful for my strong arms and legs, my breasts and stomach which show the scars of my life until now and all of the skin and fat which enrobe me. All of this represents who I am today.

But I am changing; how I see myself is changing; how I live my life is changing.

I hid from my physical body, my emotional reality and life in general for years.   On the surface I may have been successful, but deeper, I was unhappy; fuelling my life with alcohol, caffeine and food.

I may not have liked the excess weight, but I didn’t like myself generally or find myself remotely attractive so how could ANYONE else possibly?…

The techniques of Emotional Freedom Techniques (tapping) and Matrix Reimprinting have allowed me to come back into a healthier balance with my body (I’ll explain more about this in the future) and for the last 3 years, I am delighted that I have also been able to offer this opportunity to others as a therapist.

Over the last couple of years, I have changed my diet and in the process lost some weight, but despite this increased kindness towards myself, after years of professional couch-potatoeing (is that even a word?), I was finding it hard to motivate myself to become fitter. And how best should I do it anyway? I like to walk, I like Tai Chi, but I felt like I needed something different…

I’m not interested in building muscle or running a marathon (never say never) but now I’m actually happy to be in this body, I’d like to be as healthy as I can be and a really positive body image.  That means investing in myself, both nutritionally and through exercise – even the word makes me go cold.

To help, I found Dan Reader. He’s a personal trainer here in Sudbury ( The NHS would have been proud of the form-filling that was necessary, but it gave him the information he needed to give me a personalized plan.

I met him today, he is a real person and I feel comfortable with him so far. This is important – he’s going to be seeing me sweat buckets and probably hear me cuss a lot…. But I am taking the bull by the horns.

So my challenge is – DO I LOVE MYSELF ENOUGH to move my body in healthy ways, so that I can be fitter and better able to live my best life and therefore be in the best shape to help others?


If you would support with your journey and to experience these marvellous therapies for yourself, please contact me.

With best wishes


November 21 2014

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